DARE TO DREAM

It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living.
I want to know what you ache for
and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing.

It doesn’t interest me how old you are.
I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool
for love
for your dream
for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon…
I want to know if you have touched the centre of your own sorrow
if you have been opened by life’s betrayals
or have become shrivelled and closed
from fear of further pain.

I want to know if you can sit with pain
mine or your own
without moving to hide it
or fade it
or fix it.

I want to know if you can be with joy
mine or your own
if you can dance with wildness
and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes
without cautioning us to
be careful
be realistic
remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me
is true.
I want to know if you can
disappoint another
to be true to yourself.
If you can bear the accusation of betrayal
and not betray your own soul.
If you can be faithless
and therefore trustworthy.

I want to know if you can see Beauty
even when it is not pretty
every day.
And if you can source your own life
from its presence.

I want to know if you can live with failure
yours and mine
and still stand at the edge of the lake
and shout to the silver of the full moon,
“Yes.”

It doesn’t interest me
to know where you live or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up
after the night of grief and despair
weary and bruised to the bone
and do what needs to be done
to feed the children.

It doesn’t interest me who you know
or how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand
in the centre of the fire
with me
and not shrink back.

It doesn’t interest me where or what or with whom
you have studied.
I want to know what sustains you
from the inside
when all else falls away.

I want to know if you can be alone
with yourself
and if you truly like the company you keep
in the empty moments.

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STATUS: love this one
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MEN CAN'T WIN!

If you put a woman on a pedestal and try to protect her from the rat race…you’re a male chauvinist. If you stay home and do the housework …you’re a pansy.


If you work too hard…there’s never any time for her. If you don’t work enough…you’re a good-for-nothing bum.


If she has a boring repetitive job with low pay…this is exploitation. If you have a boring repetitive job with low pay…..you should get off your lazy behind and find something better.


If you get a promotion ahead of her…..that is favoritism. If she gets a job ahead of you……it’s affirmative action.


If you mention how nice she looks……it’s sexual harassment. If you keep quiet……….it’s male indifference.

If you cry…………you’re a wimp. If you don’t……..you’re an insensitive bastard.

If you make a decision without consulting her………you’re a chauvinist. If she makes a decision without consulting you……she’s a liberated woman.

If you ask her to do something she doesn’t enjoy……. that’s domination. If she asks you………it’s a favor.


If you appreciate the female form …..you’re a pervert. If you don’t ….you’re gay.

If you like a woman to shave her legs, wear sexy lingerie and keep in shape ………….you’re sexist. If you don’t……………..you’re unromantic.


If you try to keep yourself in shape……you’re vain. If you don’t ……..you’re a slob.


If you buy her flowers………….you’re after something. If you don’t ……..you’re not thoughtful.


If you’re proud of your achievements……..you’re full of yourself. If you aren’t……. you’re not ambitious.


If she has a headache…………she’s tired. If you have a headache………….you don’t love her anymore.

If you want it too often………you’re over sexed. If you don’t…………….there must be someone else.

So why do men die first?

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STATUS:hellllllerrrrr!
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~The trade off was the never ending numbness between pain and nothing. I'd chosen NOTHING. -BELLA /NEW MOON

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STATUS: hay LORD!
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LOOKING SO GOOD TOGETHER AT THE OSCARS!

You can go from a Grammy winner to a water boy when you walk into the Kodak Theatre on Oscar night."
– John Mayer, on his Oscar date night with girlfriend Jennifer Aniston, on Ryan Seacrest's KIIS-FM radio show

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STATUS: pakshet na pms eto!
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FAVORITE IDOL CONTESTANTS:

~ I so love watching american Idol! I'm such a sucker for singing contest and raw talents. Here are my favorite A. I. contestants so far, I especially love love DANNY GOKEY!!!!


MICHAEL SARVER
Age: 27
Hometown: Jasper, Texas
He's an oil-rig roughneck with a voice – and a 3-year-old daughter. Of his all-American appeal, Sarver says, "Real life people can relate to me, especially in the economy and the day that we live. It’s very difficult for a lot of people, and I see it as a chance to see someone rise from the ashes."



ADAM LAMBERT
Age: 26
Hometown: Los Angeles
He's got the look of a rocker – and the voice! After bringing down the house with his super-slick performance of "Satisfacition," Paula Abdul said she'd been transported to an Adam Lambert concert. Well, he's got the experience – apart from singing since he was 10 years old, Lambert was in the cast of Wicked



ALLISON IRAHETA
Age: 16
Hometown: Los Angeles
She's still a teenager, but her powerhouse performance of Heart's "Alone" made her a shoo-in for the Top 12. "She blew it out the box," judge Randy Jackson said at the time. Kara DioGuardi told her, "You don’t even know how good you are." Maybe not, but she says she's been waiting for the chance to audition for the show since she was 9.

DANNY GOKEY
Age: 28
Hometown: Milwaukee
He won over hearts with his tragic story of loss. But the church music director, whose wife died just weeks before his Idol audition, won over the judges and voters with his cover of Mariah Carey's "Hero." "My wife would be telling all her friends," Gokey told reporters. "She'd just be so happy."

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STATUS:hays late ako
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~HEY ARLS GOOD NEWS: HIGH AA ANG ANNUAL APPRAISAL KO! WAAAH ANG SAYA-SAYA!!!!!
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STATUS: waaah ang saya!
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~I was surprised when I found myself in my room, not clearly remembering the commute home from work or even opening the front door. But that didn't matter loosing track of time was the most I asked from life.
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STATUS: hays daming work
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HUMMING IN MY UNIVERSE

BEST I EVER HAD~vertical Horizon

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now

[Chorus]
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had

So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely

Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better

[Chorus]
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had

And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted

[Chorus]
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had
The best I ever had
The best I ever


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STATUS: HAYS
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HUMMING IN MY UNIVERSE

Drops Of Jupiter lyrics

Now that she's back in the atmosphere
With drops of Jupiter in her hair, hey, hey
She acts like summer and walks like rain
Reminds me that there's time to change, hey, hey
Since the return from her stay on the moon
She listens like spring and she talks like June, hey, hey

Tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the Milky Way to see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated

Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there

Now that she's back from that soul vacation
Tracing her way through the constellation, hey, hey
She checks out Mozart while she does tae-bo
Reminds me that there's room to grow, hey, hey

Now that she's back in the atmosphere
I'm afraid that she might think of me as plain ol' Jane
Told a story about a man who is too afraid to fly so he never did land

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back to the Milky Way
And tell me, did Venus blow your mind
Was it everything you wanted to find
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there

Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
Your best friend always sticking up for you even when I know you're wrong
Can you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance five-hour phone conversation
The best soy latte that you ever had . . . and me

Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back toward the Milky Way

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STATUS: HELLO ARLS MISS YAH!
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LOVE THIS VAMPIRE!

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STATUS: so sick
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Vicky Cristina Barcelona

~just watched thie movie yesterday grabe so funny daming sex scenes haha! and then ang weird kc totoo pla yun well for some case na kailangan mag bring ka pa ng isang tao sa isang magulong relationship para mag worked out hehe. 3 some eto! na scenery so ganda. And I loved scarlett

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STATUS: sadness consumes my heart
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after thoughts....

'Cristina, on the other hand, expected something very different out of love. She had reluctantly accepted suffering as an inevitable component of deep passion, and was resigned to putting her feelings at risk. If you asked her what it was she was gambling her emotions on to win, she would not have been able to say. She knew what she didn't want, however, and that was exactly what Vicky valued above all else.' ~ cristina and victoria Barcelona


just finished reading na Love in the time of Cholera parang commercial break from the Twilight series. Finally after 3 months I was able to complete na the 4 books of the Twilight saga. Hays ang gastos. But I know naman it's gonna be all worth it first few pages pa lang ng New moon sobrang exciting na. Funny, Ngayun ko lang na realized na almost all of the books na I've read and favorites usually has got something to do with waiting, second chances, letting go, memories of love after forever: emotional torture: lahat I can relate maybe dun ko na lang nalalabas lahat~ the things that I so long to say or questions that I so long to ask, the tears~ the tears they're always there. The sadness~ the immesurable sadness my heart feels. I would always think of him like some distant star; always so unreachable and never completely mine. I would always asked myself how much more I could take I can't even answer that maybe just maybe I want answers: did he really loved me? I don't know. I'm not too sure of so many things in my life na. Maybe from the start of the relationship alam ko na I never did deserved him hanggang ngayon thinking of him coming back alam ko na di ko na kakayanin mas lalo na sya naging unreachable with so many mistakes na ginawa ko so many lies; Ang layo na nmin mas lalo na ngayon. Why did you gave up on me.? I'm not sure if I'll ever be whole again. Feeling ko naman na most of the time napaka sensible ko always the practical person minsan nagagawa ko naman not to think of you but always, always at the back of my mind: Every little things I see you, I hear you, I memorized the scent of your skin. I miss your smile most of all. really really miss your smile. The way you laugh, the way you always never fail to amaze me, the way you walk the way you always support me and my endevours. I know late na lahat but still there are some things that I want you to know: I want you to know that I love you I never really stop. I miss you so much that it feels like my heart will burst: I'm sorry for all the pain I caused you; I'm so sorry if I took you for granted but I loved you the best way that I know how to love. I'm just so sorry that was not enough. I'm sorry it's just so embarrasing to be so poor plus all the things the other things na nangyari before I realized just now lahat ng ginagawa ko before para lumayo cause I kept on saying na I don't deserve you and I'll never will. Pero sobarang sakit sa akin nun but I have to do it so now alam mo na how I'd intentionally hurt you kung bakit ang sama sama ko. Hindi nman talaga tayo bagay sobrang nakakahiya sa family mo. So there. I said it; sobrang gulo kc nun under different circumstances sana di ko ginawa. I'm just so sorry for hurting you. I'm sorry if I can never be the person that you wanted me to be. And I love you~ today and always.
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STATUS: currently reading NEW MOON
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inspirational stories

A Piece of My Heart

One day a young man was standing in the middle of the town proclaiming that he had the most beautiful heart in the whole valley. A large crowd gathered and they all admired his heart for it was perfect. There was not a mark or a flaw in it. Yes, they all agreed it truly was the most beautiful heart they had ever seen. The young man was very proud and boasted more loudly about his beautiful heart.

Suddenly, an old man appeared at the front of the crowd and said "Why, your heart is not nearly as beautiful as mine." The crowd and the young man looked at the old man's heart. It was beating strongly, but it was full of scars. It had places where pieces had been removed and other pieces put in, but they didn't fit quite right and there were several jagged edges. In fact, in some places there were deep gouges where whole pieces were missing.

The people stared -- how can he say his heart is more beautiful, they thought? The young man looked at the old man's heart and saw its state and laughed. "You must be joking," he said. "Compare your heart with mine. Mine is perfect and yours is a mess of scars and tears."

"Yes," said the old man, "yours is perfect looking but I would never trade with you. You see, every scar represents a person to whom I have given my love - I tear out a piece of my heart and give it to them, and often they give me a piece of their heart which fits into the empty place in my heart, but because the pieces aren't exact, I have some rough edges, which I cherish, because they remind me of the love we shared."

"Sometimes I have given pieces of my heart away, and the other person hasn't returned a piece of his heart to me. These are the empty gouges -- giving love, is taking a chance. Although these gouges are painful, they stay open, reminding me of the love I have for these people too, and I hope someday they may return and fill the space I have waiting. So now do you see what true beauty is?"

The young man stood silently with tears running down his cheeks. He walked up to the old man, reached into his perfect young and beautiful heart and ripped a piece out. He offered it to the old man with trembling hands. The old man took his offering, placed it in his heart and then took a piece from his old scarred heart and placed it in the wound in the young man's heart. It fit, but not perfectly, as there were some jagged edges. The young man looked at his heart, not perfect anymore but more beautiful than ever, since love from the old man's heart flowed into his.

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STATUS: so sleepy so lungkot:
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UNCONSCOIUS MUTTERINGS

Be mine :: forever
Ecstatic :: feeling
Orderly :: nun
Sebastian :: ariel
Sore :: feet
Don’t need :: you
Rockstar :: michael stipe REM
Tinfoil :: can
Addiction :: cigarettes
Where?:: when?
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STATUS: so sleepy and missing issay
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LOVE IN THE TIME OF CHOLERA QUOTES

"Together they had overcome the daily incomprehension, the instantaneous hatred, the reciprocal nastiness, and fabulous flashes of glory in the conjugal conspiracy. It was time when they both loved each other best, without hurry or excess, when both were most conscious of and grateful for their incredible victories over adversity. Life would still present them with other moral trials, of course, but that no longer mattered: they were on the other shore."

"The problem with marriage is that it ends every night after making love, and it must be rebuilt every morning before breakfast."

"He allowed himself to be swayed by his conviction that human beings are not born once and for all on the day their mothers give birth to them, but that life obliges them over and over again to give birth to themselves."

"To him she seemed so beautiful, so seductive, so different from ordinary people, that he could not understand why no one was as disturbed as he by the clicking of her heels on the paving stones, why no one else's heart was wild with the breeze stirred by the sighs of her veils, why everyone did not go mad with the movements of her braid, the flight of her hands, the gold of her laughter. He had not missed a single one of her gestures, not one of the indications of her character, but he did not dare approach her for fear of destroying the spell."- Gabriel Garcia Marquez, Love in the Time of Cholera
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STATUS: balik trabaho na
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EEEEEWWWWW!

~ Ano beh nakakapandiri ka talaga you're so baduy pero feeling mo na you're so fashionable! hahaha I'm so bad! with all the heels and all the effect! waaah! ang pangit with the fitting blouse lahat nga taba mo lumalabas can you still breath?!!!!! haha! Okay lang naman sana if you are a nice person kaso you're noT!

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STATUS: EEEEEEEEWWW KA TALAGA!
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YOU KNOW HOW I REALLY FEEL

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STATUS:I'm so sleepy
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IT STILL IS:

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STATUS: I'm so sleepy
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FREEDOM

Let people love. . . and let them love who they want to love. . .

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STATUS:pupunta ng rob mamaya para bumili ng exhaust fan. hay gastos!
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"Ang lungkot hindi nawawala, hindi nauubos, pero pede mong bawasan..."

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STATUS: hays lord!
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