TURNING 28 SUCKS!

"Does it break my heart, of course, every moment of every day, into more pieces than my heart was made of, I never thought of myself as quiet, much less silent, I never thought about things at all, everything changed, the distance that wedged itself between me and my happiness wasn't the world, it wasn't the bombs and burning buildings, it was me, my thinking, the cancer of never letting go, is ignorance bliss, I don't know, but it's so painful to think, and tell me, what did thinking ever do for me, to what great place did thinking ever bring me? I think and think and think, I've thought myself out of happiness one million times, but never once into it." — Jonathan Safran Foer

~ Turning 28 really sucks! just 6 days before my bday and I am feeling sick with fever ,colds and all the works! I'm halucinating, yesterday I saw him oh well I know it's not him~ just the same hair probably and about the same height only its not him really just the pigment of my imagination running like crazy AGAIN: damn. YOU. to HELL. my mind is creating mental suicide which is so bad considering Euan. I'm losing it. the battle. to resolve my issues.crap. I don't ever want YOU in my life again. Spending a lot of my time in TWITTER updating and just saying everything and anything. I have been praying really hard for the last couple of days really really hard. just mainly chanting help me, help me please, please.I have to learn to breath above water otherwise I will drown from this madness. I know help me, help me please, please. madness.

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STATUS: turning 28 sucks!