On being positive and all that jazz.

Some of the pain actually went away.
After all those trying times I would say that really changing your outlook in life helps a great deal - I no longer ask myself why can't I be more happy, why I cant have all the simple things that almost everyone I know has. Why do I have to slave myself to work Why cant life be a little more fair for me and Euan? All these stupid questions-- but really It helps that I pray a lot more now and I will always without fail -everytime I feel deprived to think that I am so blessed-I have everything that I NEED.

I have Euan
I have a job that is so flexible that I can still spend time with Euan that I can still rest and do dvd marathons and do household chores.
I have my Family
I Have friends
We have food in the table
We have a house

It actually is funny but now I have more hopes for the future I still ask and seek and pray for more blessings I know in God's own time everything will come to pass all the heartaches and pains will be gone as they say give time time because it really does heal all wounds.
I know that in time as well Euan and I will have more. I just know it.