sometimes love seems easy. Like..it's easy to love rain...and hawks. And it's easy to love wild plums...and the moon. But with people, seems like love's a hard thing to know. It gets all mixed up. I mean, you can love one person in one way and another person in another way. But how do you know you love the right one in every way?"
— Billie Letts

"Accept what people offer. Drink their milkshakes. Take their love."
— Wally Lamb (She's Come Undone)

LOVE IT!

"I am not a smart man, particularly, but one day, at long last, I stumbled from the dark woods of my own, and my family's, and my country's past, holding in my hands these truths: that love grows from the rich loam of forgiveness; that mongrels make good dogs; that the evidence of God exists in the roundness of things. This much, at least, I've figured out. I know this much is true."
— Wally Lamb (I Know This Much Is True)

"I feel like I don't have all the ingredients a person is supposed to have."
— Jane Hamilton The Book of Ruth

Well, sometimes love seems easy. Like..it's easy to love rain...and hawks. And it's easy to love wild plums...and the moon. But with people, seems like love's a hard thing to know. It gets all mixed up. I mean, you can love one person in one way and another person in another way. But how do you know you love the right one in every way?"
— Billie Letts

Lately, the world felt fragile, like a blown egg, as if it might shatter beneath a careless touch."
— Kim Edwards (The Memory Keeper's Daughter)

HUMMING IN MY UNIVERSE

Ordinary People
John Legend


hohooooow hooooooo
Girl I'm in love with you
But this ain't the honeymoon,
pass the infatuation phase....
We're right in the thick of love,
At times we get sick of love,
It seems like we argue every day...

I know I misbehaved,
And you made your mistakes,
And we both still got room left to grow....
And though love sometimes hurts,
I still put you first,
And we'll make this thing work,
But I think we should take it slowww

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go..
Cause we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow..

Take it slow..., oh oh oh oh oh oh, this time we'll take ,it slow
Take it slow..., oh oh oh oh oh oh, this time we'll take, it slow

This ain't a movie, no
No fairytale conclusion y'all
It gets more confusing every day owowowo
Sometimes it's Heaven sent
Then we head back to Hell again..
We kiss, then we make up on the way...

I hang up, you call..
We rise and we fall..
And we feel like just walking away
As our love advances
We take second chances
Though it's not a fantasy
I still want you to stay

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cause we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow

Take it slow..oh oh,ho,oh oh oh, this time we'll take it slow
Take it slow..oh oh ohhhhah, this time we'll take it slow
Take it slow..

Maybe we'll live and learn
Maybe we'll crash and burn
Maybe you'll stay
Maybe you'll leave
Maybe you'll return
Maybe another fight
Maybe we won't survive
Maybe we'll grow
We'll never know
Baby, you... and I!

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cause we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow, hey hey hey

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cause we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow
Take it slow oh,oh,oh
This time we'll take it slow
Take it slow oh,oh,oh
this time we'll take it slow
take it slow oh,oh,oh
slow
this time we'll take it slow
take it slow oh oh oh oh oh oh
this time we'll take it slow

'Ambivalent' was the word I used, avoiding the much more accurate description: utterly consumed with dread.

More than anything, all I have ever wanted is to be close to someone. More than anything, all I have ever wanted is to feel as if I wasn’t alone."
— James Frey (A Million Little Pieces)

Hay I admit katulad ni Kris Aquino I'm An O.A. mom. as in Over acting. As in worry freak. As in laging may takot-God cough and colds lang ni Euan feeling ko may nightmares na ako hays .

Ngayon pa dahil sa dengue we spray Baygon sa house 3x a week, may off lotion pa at yon baygon mat shet nakaka loka.

Tapos ngayon naman may hmfd as in hand, foot and mouth disease:
Hand, foot and mouth disease (HFMD) is a human syndrome caused by intestinal viruses of the Picornaviridae family. The most common strains causing HFMD are Coxsackie A virus and Enterovirus 71 (EV-71).[1]

HFMD usually affects infants and children, and is quite common. It is moderately contagious and is spread through direct contact with the mucus, saliva, or feces of an infected person. It typically occurs in small epidemics in nursery schools or kindergartens, usually during the summer and autumn months. The usual incubation period is 3–7 days.

It is uncommon in adults, but those with immune deficiencies are very susceptible. HFMD is not to be confused with foot-and-mouth disease (also called hoof-and-mouth disease), which is a disease affecting sheep, cattle, and swine, and which is unrelated to HFMD (but also caused by a member of the Picornaviridae family).-From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Symptoms of HFMD include:[2]

Fever
Headache
Vomiting
Fatigue
Malaise
Referred ear pain
Sore throat
Painful oral lesions
Non-itchy body rash, followed by sores with blisters on palms of hands and soles of feet
Oral ulcer
Sores or blisters may be present on the buttocks of small children and infants
Irritability in infants and toddlers
Loss of appetite.
Diarrhea
The common incubation period (the time between infection and onset of symptoms) is from three to seven days.

Early symptoms are likely to be fever often followed by a sore throat. Loss of appetite and general malaise may also occur. Between one and two days after the onset of fever, painful sores (lesions) may appear in the mouth and/or throat. A rash may become evident on the hands, feet, mouth, tongue, inside of the cheeks, and occasionally the buttocks (but generally, the rash on the buttocks will be caused by the diarrhea.)

Tapos sore eyes pa. ano ba!


I'm so freaking out ang dami dami ng sakit -ang sakit ng ulo ko - I swear.

Yu trauma ko pa sa sunog laging nandito super afraid talaga ako.

Si Euan naman he's growing up to be a very smart kid super kulit nga lang pero hey that's part of growing up I guess. He's so sweet di he loves kisses and hugs donuts and cartoons and I love him so much that sometimes it feels that he's all I have.

really I'm trying to be a good mom really trying so damn hard there came a point that I'm praying and begging the Lord to grant me more patience - I don't want Euan to grow up thinking that I'm always irritated and that I act and look like a monster hay ang hirap pala talga maging mommy- super! Ang hirap dahil lalo na I'm a working mom and then chores pa sa house stress sometimes sa money issue, sa alone time issue, sa loneliness issue, sa health issue- Is Euan eating healthy tama ba yun vitamis intake nya, is he getting enough rest and sleep, is he eating healthy foods? Or how about upbringing? Am I being a good example? morals. proper conduct and all. Future issues mapapag aral ko ba siya, will I have the time and energy to teach him how to read and write and bring him to the zoo and all hay all of these things it makes it even harder na mag isa lang ako sa pag papalaki kay Euan. dear Jesus help me. Help us.

Sometimes the fear is giving me nightmares and restless sleep sana alm ko the answers to all these diba kaya lang hindi and I'm just praying so hard na wag kami pabayaan ni Euan.

This is a good sign, having a broken heart. It means we have tried for something. ”
— Elizabeth Gilbert (Eat, Pray, Love)

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“I have a history of making decisions very quickly about men. I have always fallen in love fast and without measuring risks. I have a tendency not only to see the best in everyone, but to assume that everyone is emotionally capable of reaching his highest potential. I have fallen in love more times than I care to count with the highest potential of a man, rather than with the man himself, and I have hung on to the relationship for a long time (sometimes far too long) waiting for the man to ascend to his own greatness. Many times in romance I have been a victim of my own optimism.”
— Elizabeth Gilbert (Eat, Pray, Love)

I'm never overwhelmed or under it either; just nicely whelmed. I'm OK. Nothing spectacular but sometimes special. I look in the mirror and see this medium average person. A little tired, a little sad, but not falling apart."
— Cecelia Ahern (Thanks for the Memories)

Boys Like Girls featuring Taylor Swift – Two Is Better Than One Song Words
I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought
Hey, you know, this could be something
‘Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I’m left with nothing

So maybe it’s true
That I can’t live without you
And maybe two is better than one
But there’s so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you’ve already got me coming undone
And I’m thinking two is better than one

I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
‘Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything’s okay
I’m finally now believing

That maybe it’s true
That I can’t live without you
And maybe two is better than one
But there’s so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you’ve already got me coming undone
And I’m thinking two is better than one
“Two Is Better Than One” lyrics are provided by Geniusbeauty.com

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought, “Hey,”

Maybe it’s true
That I can’t live without you
Maybe two is better than one
But there’s so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you’ve already got me coming undone
And I’m thinking
I can’t live without you
‘Cause, baby, two is better than one
But there’s so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
But I’ll figure it out
When all is said and done
Two is better than one
Two is better than one

Love is a desire for that lost half of ourselves.
Milan Kundera

Anyone whose goal is 'something higher' must expect someday to suffer vertigo. What is vertigo? Fear of falling? No, Vertigo is something other than fear of falling. It is the voice of the emptiness below us which tempts and lures us, it is the desire to fall, against which, terrified, we defend ourselves.

Milan Kundera, The Unbearable Lightness of Being

I WANT:

Life of Pi is a fantasy adventure novel written by Yann Martel. The protagonist Piscine "Pi" Molitor Patel, an Indian boy from Pondicherry, explores issues of spirituality and practicality from an early age. He survives 227 days after a shipwreck, while stranded on a boat in the Pacific Ocean. Martel brought the idea of rituals many times throughout the novel as well as storytelling. Rituals give structure to abstract ideas and emotions—in other words, ritual is an alternate form of storytelling. It was rituals and storytelling that kept Pi Patel sane.

The novel was first published by Knopf Canada in September 2001, and the UK edition won the Man Booker Prize for Fiction the following year.[1] It was chosen for CBC Radio's Canada Reads 2003, where it was championed by author Nancy Lee. It won the 2003 Boeke Prize, a South African novel award. In 2004, it won the Asian/Pacific American Award for Literature in Best Adult Fiction for years 2001-2003. Its French translation, L'Histoire de Pi, was also chosen in the French version of the reading competition, Le combat des livres.

There were people whom you positively ached to please. If you failed with such people they would put you into a category in their minds where they could kee you and have contempt for you forever."
— Alice Munro

"...bleak territory of the heart."

This was her life. Not the life she had once dreamed of, not a life her younger self would ever have imagined or desired, but the life she was living, with all its complexities. This was her life, built with care and attention, and it was good."

— Kim Edwards (The Memory Keeper's Daughter)