MY SISTER'S KEEPER: MOVIE TRAILER

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STATUS:talked and chat with so may people today.
also went malling with my youngest sister nina who also love my sister's keeper.

"there should be a statute of limitation on grief. A rulebook that says it is all right to wake up crying, but only for a month. That after 42 days you will no longer turn with your heart racing, certain you have heard her call out your name. That there will be no fine imposed if you feel the need to clean out her desk; take down her artwork from the refrigerator; turn over a school portrait as you pass- if only because it cuts you fresh again to see it. That it's okay to measure the time she has been gone, the way we once measured her birthdays." — Jodi Picoult (My Sister's Keeper)

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"Nobody wants to admit to this, but bad things will keep on happening. Maybe that's beause it's all a chain, and a long time ago someone did the first bad thing, and that led someone else to do another bad thing, and so on. You know, like that game where you whisper a sentence into someone's ear, and that person whispers it to someone else, and it all comes out wrong in the end. But then again, maybe bad things happen because it's the only way we can keep remembering what good is supposed to look like." — Jodi Picoult

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STATUS: wala na akong maramdaman.

"Let me tell you this: if you meet a loner, no matter what they tell you, it's not because they enjoy solitude. It's because they have tried to blend into the world before, and people continue to disappoint them."

— Jodi Picoult (My Sister's Keeper)

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STATUS: my back aches of sadness.

meron na ako yipppeee!

My Sister’s Keeper is a poignant, uplifting, emotional, sad, triumphant, passionate, heartwrenching and extremely powerful story about the Fitzgeralds, a family united in their love for each other but divided on exactly where the boundaries of family obligations, love and sacrifice should end. But it is, ultimately, a story of two sisters, the unbreakable bond they share and how totally entwined they have been all their lives until a crucial decision threatens to tear them apart and ends up changing all the lives forever.

The Fitzgeralds - Brian, a firefighter and avid amateur astronomer, and Sara, a stay-at-home mother and ex-lawyer - have the perfect suburban family, but life changes irreversibly when Kate, now sixteen, is diagnosed at age two with leukemia. She develops what looks like "a line of small blue jewels" down her spine, and her mother knows immediately that she is not seeing normal bruises. The family doctor wants the tests repeated in the hospital hematology/oncology department. There, after a series of painful and invasive procedures, they learn that Kate suffers from "APL … a subgroup of myeloid leukemia. The rate of survival … is twenty to thirty percent, if treatment starts immediately." The treatments keep the disease at bay for about five years, until Kate's body explodes with runaway cancer cells. She desperately needs a bone marrow transplant or she will die. Her determined mother, on the advice of the doctor, persuades her husband to try for the "perfectly engineered baby."

Their other child, Jesse, is not a match, but now at thirteen, Anna has always been aware that she was "born for a specific purpose…a scientist managed to hook up [her] mother’s eggs" and her father’s sperm "to create a specific combination of precious genetic material," so that could she could be a bone marrow match for her sister Kate. When Kate needs leukocytes or stem cells or bone marrow "to fool her body into thinking it’s healthy," Anna has obediently stepped in. Everytime Kate is hospitalized so is she, which means Anna can never go away to soccer camp or even to college.

Until now, Anna has never questioned her role in life. But she says that "lately I have been having nightmares, where I’m cut into so many pieces that there isn’t enough of me to be put back together." The strain has been heavy on them all, especially Anna who says so bluntly - "I was never really a kid. To be honest, neither were Kate and Jesse…" And it is hard because they "practically set a place for Death at the dinner table." It does different things to them. Jesse is the wild kid who does drugs and plays with matches, gets arrested for stealing a judge’s car and is generally hopeless. But he is acting out is because he feels he is worthless, unable to help Kate. He calls himself "a lost cause."

After the countless surgeries, transfusions and shots, Anna is now required to give a kidney, which her mother Sara, so intent on saving Kate, doesn’t think is a big deal. Kidney donation us considered a relatively safe surgery. But the pamphlet that Anna reads explains that "when you donate a kidney, you spend the night before the operation fasting and taking laxatives. You’re given anesthesia, the risks of which can include stroke, heart attack and lung problems. The four-hour surgery isn’t a walk in the park either --- you have a 1 in 3,000 chance of dying on the operating table, if you don’t, you are hospitalized for four to seven days, although it takes four to six weeks to recover…"

She has had enough. She loves her sister fiercely but she can’t go through with the kidney donation, so she sues her parents for the right to make her own medical decisions.

When you reach the end of the book after following Anna through her journey, you realize that there are no easy or even right answers. There isn’t one person who can be judged for what they think is moral or ethical, or even justifiable. Sometimes you don’t know what the right thing is but as a mother, as a doctor and even as a sibling, you do what you think is right for you and for everyone else.



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STATUS:grabe ganda ng book sa simula pa lang

~I'm lonely. Why do you think I had to learn to act so independent? I also get mad too quickly, and I hog the covers, and my second toe is longer than my big one. My hair has it's own zip code. Plus, I get certifiably crazy when I've got PMS. You don't love someone because they're perfect. You love them in spite of the fact that they're not.'

~my sister's keeper by Jodi Picoult

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