Just trying to get down to the Heart of the Matter.

- running really late from writing a decent post cant think of anything really just pics and videos and quotes of my current favorites or what have. God, I'm so sleepy can't think of anything but crawling back to bed and pulling up the covers and realizing that it's so effin' hot~ but really I just want to go back to sleep. I hate 11 pm shifts. really. Looking forward to my next restday will be going to the park with Euan and will do some grocery since it's pay day as well on Saturday. I just realized that It has been months since I really blog- oh you know what I mean- A lot of things had happened My mom dying, House Fire, account transfers, kahirapan hehe at paghihiwalay. Really trying to get down to the heart of the matter I'm still learning to be patient specially with Euan, still trying to control my outburst. I missed listening to songs I haven't done that lately. Been doing a lot of series watching God I love Glee and Lee Dewyze and Gossip Girl and a lot of movie watching as well. I would like to think that I'm not turning out to be a practical person I would like to believe that after all that has happened I still have hope and some good sense of what's right and what's not. magic. fate. I'm now smoke free- 2 months really proud of that- It just means that I'm stronger than my vices. have to go to training again. till next time. some random facts. SAYONARA!

STATUS: sleep as hell

~really so sleepy and missing my bed. My mind's is in total mess right now.
I'm thinking of just staying in bed and sleep it all off, Only I do have to go to work and slave myself to death just to avoid being confronted of my loneliness. I feel like a living dead never knowing how I get by everyday: eating but not even tasting the food; hearing but not even listening; talking but not even comprehending; just staring into blank space just blocking thoughts and feelings like it's so me now. not thinking, not feeling , not wanting, not expecting, not even trying just sailing~getting by~so dead. Spirit broken; as if life has been taken out from me. leaving me with nothing but space, black space, of broken dreams and empty promises.

cigarette: 0
STATUS: so sleepy and missing my bed!